So today’s an interesting one really, because I’ve done a video before about where I didn’t really feel like showing up. But today is the first day where I’ve really been like, I don’t know what I’m going to talk about. I don’t have anything to say. And that’s an interesting one, because in and of itself, by questioning the thought has revealed a whole depth of inspiration for me.

Whereas if I just sat in this space of I don’t know what to say, desperately searching for topics, trying different things out in my mind, I probably would have been feeding this whole grasping energy, this whole, like, desperately searching for something. Desperation is probably a good word, but in giving myself the space to be like, I don’t know what to say.

But then not actually chasing any ideas, but sitting with that in and of itself has given me obviously something to say.

I’m talking right now, but I think sometimes I greatest challenges or greatest frustrations or a greatest and I do this because I kind of imagine it is like a solid knot of like, oh my gosh, there’s tension around this idea of I don’t know what to say, and this is a problem by sitting with it and just observing the actual thought.

The actual problem itself, there is always lessons there. So it might be that you have a thought of I’m not good enough, but maybe instead of then constantly searching for all the reasons why, maybe you are good enough in the arguments and the reasons and the justifications that you give. You could sit with the idea of I’m not good enough, Huh?

What’s within this? What’s the lesson here? What’s the opportunity to grow and learn about myself here?

I think it can produce more interesting and more it’s a more fertile ground for new ideas than desperately trying to search for something else. I think facing up to the restriction that you’re feeling and being with can often provide you the answers in a more gentle way than if we go chasing it. And it brings to mind as well.

On the subject specifically of if you have to create something, if you have to or you want to create something. There’s the book Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert, which is on my bookshelf behind me, which I really enjoyed. I know some people didn’t enjoy it so much. I’m a big fan personally, but she talks about this concept that ideas essentially live in the universe and they come and they visitors and they plant themselves in our minds and we have to be receptive to those ideas coming.

And often it’s not a case of waiting for the inspiration to hit or the idea to land before we begin our work.

It’s actually the process of being in the work, being in the situation that allows the idea to come. And I think that’s something that I definitely have experienced several times doing this like a film in the moment. So whatever arrives to me and comes out my mouth is very much of the moment. But I think there’s something here in showing up.

And I get I’ve done a video on this before, but like showing up when you don’t feel like it, it’s not about when you just don’t feel like it. You’re not in the mood. But sometimes you might be like, No, I’m in the mood, but I actually don’t know what I’m going to say. Sometimes sitting with it and instead of desperately trying to search for something else to talk about, really examine what’s going on right now.

Like what can I ask you? Pick from this very resistance that I’m feeling. What is the juice that’s here?

So it’s not about just showing up when you don’t feel like it. It’s about showing up even when you think you have nothing to say and creating enough space and staying in a relaxed energy or a relaxed way of being then I believe allows the ideas to come and arrive with you. And that’s cool. I’ve got to say this morning.